i AM someone's HERO!

I am 33 years old, single mama to a teenager. I am overweight, and tyring to improve my eating habits in an attempt to improve my low self esteem. I enjoy scrapbooking, photography, being with family, church, and reading. I am also extremely shy - until I get to know a person.

Thursday, December 01, 2005


We were told today to prepare. But how does one prepare? How does any person prepare for the death of their Mother?

She was diagnosed with breast cancer nearly 17 years ago, she has been a fighter every step of the way. Seems she lost the "fighter" power a few weeks ago. She's not getting better - a little worse with each passing day.

Please pray - pray that I have the strength to make it thru without her.

Friday, November 04, 2005

What will I do?

Oh my goodness ...

I went over to see how Crazy Legs was doing and where he was at and I noticed that he is just about due to show up on my doorstep.

I am a little worried. I've been reading that this crazy frog loves his drink and also smokes. He is going to go friggin' nuts here, as I don't drink nor smoke. I am hoping I will be a good hostess. I haven't the froggiest, I mean foggiest idea where I am going to take him or what we will even do. Sheesh he is probably going to think I am boring as heck and DEMAND he be shipped to the next stop the moment he steps out of his box. Oh, I hope not. I am a mess now with worry. I must get busy and clean up my dive so he doesn't tell everyone what a damn slob I am. I am so nervous. What if he doesn't like me or my family? What if he sneaks out in the middle of the night in search of a bottle and then I can't find him. Oh, that would be horrible. Oh my gosh. What would I do? What would I tell the others? I am a wreck, I really am.

I must go now. I wonder where the nearest liquor store is? Maybe I could get him a wine cooler from the nearest 7-11. Would that be good? Is a wine cooler as good as a shot of tequila or a margarita? How about cigarettes? What brand? Would he notice the difference if I bought him a pack of the pretend ones? I used to like them. Maybe he will, too. But what if he doesn't. Then what? Oh, I can tell this next week awaiting his arrival is going to be hell for me.

Please, oh please, Crazy Legs don't think I am a boring hostess. Please!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

A word of caution ...

I am still alive - but just barely.

I've been recovering after spending nearly a week in the hospital, which also required a 2 day stay in the ICU. To anyone who is in need of a root canal - do not, and I repeat DO NOT have the procedure started until you've been a full 10 days of antibiotics. This is why I was in the hospital. I needed a root canal, was put on antibiotics, when the pain was much worse the next day the dentist decided to start the root canal. By doing so he opened a can of worms, or in my case a whole lotta infection. The infection that was in my tooth spread thru out my body and when my family couldn't get me to wake up the day after the procedure I was rushed to the hospital. Just an FYI to those out there - be aware.

I am still really week - almost a week after the fact. But I am slowly starting to get back to normal - if there ever was a normal around here.

Ok, that's all. I am heading to bed.

Happy Halloween, all! Nite ...

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

The Phantom Ghost

We were hit by "The Phantom Ghost" this evening. I am glad we got it early this year because last year we got it 4 days before Halloween and it took us 20 minutes to find 2 neighbors who hadn't gotten it yet. Jordan went trolling the neighborhood this evening to see who he wants to get the "Ghost" next (tomorrow night).

What's "The Phantom Ghost" you ask? It's a fun activity that our neighborhood has been doing for about 5 years now. This evening we were sitting around watching TV and the doorbell rang. It was rather late (about 9pm-ish) and we couldn't figure out who it could possibly be. So, we all jumped up and scurried to the door. Low and behold on the porch sat a bag of candy (snickers), tucked half way underneath the bag of candy were two pieces of paper. One piece had a picture of a ghost, the Phantom (a cute kid friendly one), and the other piece had this poem ...

The Phantom Ghost
The Phantom Ghost has come to town,
To leave some goodies as I see you've found.
If you do not wish a curse to fall,
Continue this greeting, this phantom call.
First, place this Phantom where it can be seen,
And leave it there 'til Halloween.
This will scare other Phantoms who may try to call,
Be sure to participate - you'll have a ball!
Second, make 2 treats, 2 Phantoms, and 2 notes like this,
Deliver them to 2 neighbors who might have been missed.
Don't let them see you, be sneaky and quick,
The hardest part is deciding whose house to pick.
Third, leave at the door where there is no light,
Ring the doorbell, run, stay out of sight.
Be happy, have fun and come join the season,
The best kind of tricks are the ones that are pleasin'.
And remember this one very important fact,

It's a fun little activity and it's always fun to drive around the neighborhood to see who's been hit yet. We started seeing the Phantom up in windows this weekend. And Jordan kept saying he hoped we didn't get it late like last year. When we figured out what the ringing of the doorbell was Jordan was acting like a kid on Christmas.

He insisted that he leave, that very minute, to drive around to see who he was going to give his 2 treats to. So, I have the fun task of making 2 copies of the poem, and 2 copies of the Phantom, and going to buy 2 bags of candy. Jordan wants a bad of Reese's and a bag of Junior Mints.

In years past Jordan hasn't really be involved in the delivering of the Phantom, but last year he wanted to be. And this year, when we saw the first Phantom on Saturday, he immediately said he wanted to be one who did it all (picked the houses & treats). He is a hoot.

We've got our Phantom hanging (taped) up on the frontroom window, for all to see that we've been visited, so everyone can see that he's already here and so he won't come again. I have no idea who started this whole "Phantom Ghost" thing, but it's been such a fun activity that's been going on in our neighnorhood for 5 years now, and it's something we've been looking forward to each year since.

If you don't have a "Phantom Ghost" in your neighborhood please think about starting one. It's fun to see the excitement on all the kids' (both young and old) faces when they've been visited.

It's late ... nite.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Is it English or German?

First, it is F.R.E.E.Z.I.N.G!!! here. We went to Jordan's football game this afternoon and froze our butts off. Even with it being in the afternoon it was still cold. But they won - by the skin of their teeth - it was a VERY good game though, despite all the fumbles each team gave away.

After the game we came home and had a yummy pot of soup waiting to eat. I fixed tortellini soup for dinner and it was the best. Just what we needed after a freezing football game. It was the first time I'd made the soup but I must say that it was delicious. So much so that everyone asked for seconds and then asked when I was making it again?

Since coming back from my trip on Monday I've been fixing dinner every night. I really enjoy cooking, and especially all the compliments I get when it turns out being yummy.

Before the football game I met with Shawn to discuss Jordan's midterm report. When he handed it to me and I read who Jordan's English teacher was I about crapped in my drawers. Jordan got A's & B's except in English, to which he posted an F. Now I would normally be worried/upset/something, but after reading who his teacher is I ... well, I sort of laughed.

Jordan goes to the same High School that Shawn and I went to. And he's gotten a few teachers that his parents once had as well. What is shocking is that his ENGLISH teacher this year was my GERMAN teacher some years ago. Back then she was fresh off the boat and you could barely understand her English, which made it really hard to understand what in the hell she was saying. Can you guess what Jordan's number one complaint is about his teacher? HE CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IN THE HELL SHE IS SAYING!!!

Ok, so it's been quite a few years since I was in her class, barely passing myself, but how in the hell does a German teacher (who hardly spoke a lick of English) get to be an English teacher? I mean, I know how - but it just seems odd that she's teaching such a subject, not to mention she was an old blister then I can only imagine what a bitty she is now.

Can you guess where I am going tomorrow morning? Yep, straight to Jordan's councelor (who also happens to be my old councelor) and getting some answers. I know it could possibly be all Jordan's learning disability that is causing the F, but I want to hear this hootenanny speak and HEAR for myself.

After going to the school in the morning I have a team meeting at work, and then the varsity game tomorrow night. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day/night.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Short Fall

Fall lasted about 2 weeks here in Utah. Last night it got down to 38* and it snowed in the mountains. Brrr ...

Goodbye Fall, Hello Winter.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Hot damn!!

He is so freaking hot. Let me help ya with that shirt there, Billy ...

awww ... so nice on the eyes!

Trisha, Reba, Peeps and a pic

I went out and bought Trisha Yearwood's newest CD this afternoon. Love, love, LOVE IT!! There isn't a single song on there that I don't like. I really like 'Pistol' and 'Gimme The Good Stuff.' All the songs sound so like Trisha, yet it's unlike anything she's recorded - at least in my opinion. I am glad I spent the money and finally got it. The last CD I bought (Faith's) wasn't worth the money I spent on it - so it was returned. :)

Speaking of CD's, I can't wait until next Tuesday, when Sara's new one comes out. I've been waiting for too long for this one. Also, can't wait until November when Reba's #1's comes out, too. Oh, and not to forget that season 2 of Reba will be out in December. I watched "the beginnings" on Sunday and laughed my rear off - again. Man, I love that bunch of peeps so much.

Ok, so while we're on the topic of "new things," I need to add that I bought the latest flavor of Pop Tarts - strawberry milkshake. YUMMY!! Tasted like the real thing. Of course, I need to mention that the newest flavor of Peeps - chocolate - is good, too. Not YUMMY!! like the Pop Tarts, but they were good.

Dammit, so much for my diet now, huh? Pop Tarts and Peeps all in the same sentence, and all tasted on the same day. Shit, and an upcoming road trip. Looks like the diet is on hold for a few. I'll promise to be good AFTER Halloween.

That's all ... I've got some ghost and pumpkin Peeps waiting to be inhaled.

Wait ... here is my handsome son last weekend at his Homecoming Dance ...

Ok, now that's all ... nite.